Aanstap Rooies, die pad is lank en swaar. Die mense wag al daar, en die koffie is al klaar...

So, Almost time for my birthday...getting old now. The plans for going back to South Africa are finally coming together, but not nearly as quick as I'd hoped. Maybe I should book my ticket since I work better under pressure and still have so much to do! Posting stuff, claiming tax back (If anybody could help or advise on this I'd be really grateful!)saving money, buying gifts, selling my Hi-Fi, packing packing packing...and hardest of all, saying goodbye.

I've had such a great time in the UK, met so many AMAZING people. Didn't tour much...but the company made up for it 10 fold. It just seems like life is passing me by here? Like it's going to take forever to do what I want with my life if I stay...probably because life here is SO easy compared to SA. I miss my family, my friends...especially my sister, Lelia. We're very close(...she's a Gemini, go figure. Although I do loath them so!) Plus playing Magic with my friend Philip, and laughing at him drawing cards without good cause since i happen to be kicking the crap out of him...just to watch him wipe the smile of his face as I destroy something he deems worthy.

Writing this kinda makes the tears well up. So many people I'll miss so badly...Gill, Jenny, Ben, Lauren, Kieran, Natalie, Damian, Little chef, Adam, Abi, Jesse, Zoe, Amanda,...I wish I could squeeze them all in somewhere! But sometimes things come to an end. I wish the friends I made here could be enough reason to stay, but their lives go on and mine is stagnating...it's time for change.

I hope I get accepted to Uni, since job-hunting in SA is a nightmare...and I can't afford to come back.
5 Years dedicated to singing, acting, dancing...it's a big step for me, since I'm quite lazy and wasting 5 years without anything to show will be like a whale stuck in a fishpond...depression galore.

Hopefully I'll have internet-access (Since SA is still evolving when it comes to PC's) and I'll be able to get a regular dosage of online excitement.

Thanks to everybody on Livejournal that have been around with me and for me so far...it's been great.

  • Current Music
    Roxette - It must have been love

Here I am, this is me....

How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
...believe in true love?
Your hands sayWe fit together.
Your eyes sayYou're amazing.
Your hugs sayThis is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses sayI almost can't believe you love me.
Your body saysI just want to hold you.
Your heart saysIk houd van u.
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“There are terrors lurking in the unseen corners of us all.” - Crovax

*tap tap tap tap tap*

The E-bay God has forsaken me! Were my offerings not good enough? The £120 I spent of no value to Him? Why does he punish me so! It has been three working days since I offered..and no sign of acceptance? No light! No food to feed my children! I have nothing but despair and anguish left! Was I ever worthy?

Stuff still hasn't come...grrr!

  • Current Music
    System of a down - Chop Sui

Fuckety Fuckety Fuck!

If I knew what bands were playing at Download...GRRR! I would've gone! I'm SOOOOO STOOOPID! Probably just my own fault...


  • Current Music
    Trying to avoid - Terrible headache

“Death—an outmoded concept. We sleep, and we change.”

Yay! Finally got registered on ebay.

I'm soooo STUPID! I entered the wrong card-number! Example:

Ebay: 'Enter Card number'
Me: *looking at card* Okay...
Me: *types in number on card saying: 'card number'*
Ebay: 'Invalid card number'
Me: *Breathing deeply, counting to 10*
Me: *Repeating the process*

After the repetition (several of them), the step: *Breathing deeply, counting to 10*
Was replaced with: *Chewing the mouse to bits, pissing on the monitor, and setting the rest alight with the entire Harry Potter collection as fire-fuel*

Closely followed by: *Endless crying, pouting, dieting and the writing of a bestseller on the unfairness of the world and the way of the quail*

Me: *go into bank* 'Help!'
Blond banky-girl person: 'Wrong number'
Me: *feeling stoopid*

Sorted now though...the world is my oyster!
  • Current Music
    Toploader - Achilles heel (I think)

The best ideas often come from the worst minds.

Yay! I got my debit card today! E-bay here I come!

Maybe I'm overreacting, but I'm soooo happy it's finally come! Now I can shop to my heart's desire...kindof.

Don't think my bank will be to happy though, since I'm going to have to close down my old account at Lloyds. Oh well, such is my WRATH at the refusal of debit-card application...RAAAA!

Anyway, off to register with the ebay god!
  • Current Music
    Feeder - Feeling the moment


...the one thing everybody lacks. Everybody fears that others won't like them though. My confidence has grown so much in the last two years, but I still have the same fears and insecurities, just not as noticeable. To me, confidence is the ability to hide yourself and your emotions, and to be able to choose when confronted with choices. In the same way it's kinda sad that you have to hide yourself from others and make uncertain choices for the sake of their perception regarding your insecurity. I hate indecisiveness, but I've learned to accept it in certain circumstances.

Such is life, if it weren't for unhappiness we wouldn't know joy, we'd have no comparison.

Other people do make it worth living, unfortunately not all of them.There are ones that make it worth dying too!
  • Current Music
    My Chemical Romance - Helena

so, being bored has me doing endless compu-quizes...yay

You Are 27 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.